Just because it’s finally okay for men to be gay in most first world countries, doesn’t mean that all of them are going to fall in love with another man. The craziest and most absurd issue that will arise, is that some of them will hate to discover that their heart will in fact fall in love with a woman. For some of those men, when their heart chooses for them who it will love, they in fact will never have had any sexual relations with a woman before up to that point in life.
The feeling of one’s heart to love another outside of their own norm, is devastating, leading a person to become bitter as they face that reality. The gay boy whose heart chooses the girl over another boy, will more likely spend the rest of his life in misery. He can’t contend with the reality of his sexuality because he had always assumed that other males were the only gender for him.
Life isn’t easy for the woman. She would prefer that a heterosexual male be the love of her life and not a gay boy. There’s a difference between a gay bestie, is that the man whom a woman would have as a platonic love for rather than more of a significant other type. An unexpected romantic love from an unlikely source does throw everything in a loophole!
The said gay boy whose heart fell in love with a girl, doesn’t even know what to do with his sexual organs. He has been with other men like himself and for the longest time, he supposedly never had the thought of what it means to be with a female until now. He can watch porn, but it’s not the same since his curiosity has never officially physically seen a real female body nude. He does ask in a suggesting manner about trying to be with the female he’s in love with, yet the weird part, is that the woman never had the thought cross her mind since she’s solely been in his companionship as being gay. She agrees but knows and senses that the he will decline due to his fear on the possible later occasion.
His age is in a cusp of when the average male discovers life and finally humbles himself. In this situation, he NEVER does humble himself and in the long haul, he rejects the said female out of jealousy. She’s no supermodel, but her personality is what people love since she’s compassionate and sincere. He becomes jealous and is spiteful since he feels that a man should always be superior over women. Their personalities collide and the gay boy is the first to part ways. He leaves with hate in his heart while the woman still loves him.
He returns to his philandering ways just before he met the love of his life. The intimacy with the other men is terrible because he’s only with them to cover up his shame of rejecting a woman he loves. He is embarrassed because he can’t face her in person ever again. He is also in denial since he’s a narcissist in his soul. As much as he engages sexually with other men, it continuously is unpleasant. He befriends other women, but they’re all TOO stupid to deal with him properly. He loves that they are dumb because he wants to be superior to them, always insisting he’s correct about everything. He also dumb-downs his male sex partners and female friends. Again, it’s to make himself feel superior.
In due time, he may come to his senses, but chances are he will never do so. He has built so much hate in his heart for the woman his heart fell in love with for him. The woman is left in sadness, emptiness, and lonely. She has become a bit of a recluse socially because she’s lost the love of her life mentally and emotionally. She wishes he was physically dead to her so that the grieving ends quickly. Sadly, he’s somewhat around and lives a life to avoid any encounter of her.
Down the road, he becomes curious and stalks her social media to see what she is up to after all, he originally blocked her on ALL that as well as in email and contacts. It may have taken her a while, but he sees that she’s happy, even at times, she’s happy with someone new who just so happens to be intelligent as well as handsome. He’s extremely stubborn that he brushes off her new-found happiness elsewhere and with someone much better to her than he could ever be. Over time, he continues to check what little access he can get to regarding the woman that he abandoned. He does have his own adventures in life, but they are all incomplete since none of them are with her.
She finally has moved on but deep down in her heart, she will always love him. He has proved to be a terrible and selfish human being by his mistreatment of her. She has spent a long time fearing continuous rejection and abandonment. Not all gay boys mistreat their female friends, but in this case, this gay boy, fell in love with a girl. He may never had said it and yet, his actions did since they were abnormal behaviors that a gay boy would have when he’d be with a female. In the end, he is miserable for giving up on his love for her and she’s happy that she had no choice but to let him go forever. Even if he were to make his way back to her heart, she would NEVER accept him for all the emotional pain he put her through.